It’s interesting this was part of my fit book club reading for today. I have been thinking a lot about addiction this week. My fitness accountability twin (same birthday!) and I were talking about how if we hadn’t found workouts and healthy food we would probably be caught up in a less positive addiction. We are still tied to scale and size, but working towards healthy balanced lives and it could always be worse.
I realized that considering myself as an empowered addict was actually a helpful mindset. This weekend I wanted the instant gratification of junk food. Brownies, bread, ice cream, pizza, the stuff I don’t eat usually. It tasted amazing (haven’t eaten it in so long) but the body aches, lethargy and GI bloat stink.
I was talking to another friend today about how a loved one is struggling with drugs. And how hard it is to get clean and not go back to the old life and old habits. It was a super helpful conversation to me. I need to have the mindset of someone in recovery. Mine is from putting poisons in my body that cause inflammation and dwelling in negativity. No going back.
You’ll probably never read this, but I wanted to say thank you. You were pushing your infant in the stroller and stopped to say hi and remarked how cute I looked. Thank you. You’re always coming up with kind amazing things to say even as you juggle working and being a new mama. It meant a lot.
It meant a lot because I had just changed into a sun dress after what I was cooking dropped and sprayed my 2nd outfit of the day. I was stressed about trying to get fish, veggies and biscuits done at the same time and onto the table hot after coming home late from dance and dawdling kids. I was feeling spread too thin and aggravated that hubby came home and played his app games instead of starting dinner the way he wanted it. I had made the mistake of asking him how I should cook the fish then got mad when it wasn’t the fast way I had scraped up to get it made. If he had started cooking I would’ve felt bad that he had to work then come home to make his own dinner.
Sometimes it’s so hard to snap out of the grumpy cycle. The dishes slam on the table, the pot covers close a bit too hard and sound like cymbals.
So thank you sweet neighbor for your kind, heartfelt compliment. It broke my self-criticism, negativity and frustration. I am grateful for you.
I used to be a one book at a time, start, read, finish it, kind of person. I think it’s the organized, check off boxes, kind of personality I have. It would stress me out a bit to have too many books started at the same time. This year, since my goal is to read 100 books, I’ve started being a little more relaxed about starting multiple books and having them all going at the same time. One book at a time would slow me down and take too long to get through.
It’s super interesting to me how the different books I’m reading tied to gather. Right now I’m reading Present over Perfect by Shauna Niquist and that’s really helping me focus on my inner drive to perform versus my need for rest. I’m also reading Growing Strong Daughters by Lisa Graham McMinn, and it’s making me think about how my inner drive and perspective is affecting how I raise my own two daughters. And then I’m also doing a lot of brain training with the Dana Wilde, and that’s making me realize that I need to focus on what’s going right, and not worry about what I need to be doing more of, more action to take. Finally, we are all listening to the Anne series by LM Montgomery, and it’s such a wonderful refreshing reminder of life’s important lessons and just a wonderful nostalgia. I’m glad I’m not going one at a time through books.
I had gotten into a good rhythm of blogging when I felt I had something to share updates about. Then self-doubt hit and I was sure that there were more interesting blogs to follow and that my story isn’t exciting. Today I decided that this is my blog so it’s important to share what’s going on with me.
So here’s the update:
- I’m getting ready to certify in Core De Force in July. It’s been sort of a holding pattern in my workouts, I do something every day but didn’t have a new schedule to complete till this week when I started the new beginner program YOUv2. I have had people tell me they think it will be too easy but I am loving it. It uses my body in new ways. I’m using the All Access Netflix of fitness system to access the workouts.
- After 10ish years of OrthoK lenses, hubby talked me into prepping for lasik. It’s been 2 nights of no lenses and my vision is BAD. I’m sure there’s a life lesson in here about realizing how blind I really am and how for so long I’ve thought I had clarity. Back in my night driving glasses for a tiny bit of help.
- My 100 books in 2017 challenge is going really well. I’m at almost 40 books and have really appreciated the perspective change as I fill my mind with good and interesting things.
- We have 3 weeks left of homeschooling for the year. As I write our lesson plans each weekend it’s amazing to me to look back at all the 30+ weeks that are done. Time moves on and it’s amazing all we have covered.
- Our city garden is in as of last night and I’m looking forward to fresh tomatoes and veggies.
That’s the update for me. How’s life been for you?
February is a hard month for me. I’ve always said I’m glad my birthday is in it because otherwise it would just be a struggle with nothing to look forward to. Today was a gift.
Thankful for sunshine and warmth. ☀️
Yes, I know it’s Wednesday but yesterday was my birthday and such a tasty dinner we had! We went to Jose Garces’ restaurant 24.
Asian Pear Ginger Kombucha on tap!
Wild mushroom, truffle, egg pizza
Birthday dessert. So delicious
36 in Max Studio and Lularoe.
Our server Rodney was amazing. He went over the whole menu, explained it all and offered wise advice.
- The rabbit is the best pasta. It’s wonderfully balanced and a little rich (cream foam with cherries). If you get it, enjoy it and don’t call it “bunny” or it will be harder to eat.
- Don’t over order. Get a couple things to savor and enjoy them instead of “saving room” for what’s coming.
- Eat the pasta first. The pizza is easy to take home and delicious cold.
I love these points. They’re great advice for life. Thanks Mr. Rodney. You started off my 36th year in a great way.
I decided not to blog on weekends. It’s nice to have one less social media thing to do and more time for family. Last weekend, we didn’t have Saturday soccer for the girls so hubby asked if I wanted to go up to see my grandparents. I didn’t realize it had been 4 months since we had been up to visit. I love that he thinks of these things and doesn’t mind driving 5 hours in one day so we can spend the day with family. I got a good one.