is so wicked hard. Back to schedules and cooking and cleaning. Back to regular life and bills. It feels so awesome to sleep in your own bed again that you just want to stay there.
I let myself scroll FB for a while to catch up on what I missed in my friends’ feeds while I was away. Then I made myself get up and face the music. Make the bed. Weigh in. Get dressed to work out. Take preworkout. Write out goals for the month while it kicks in.
No spend month – I don’t usually put things in the negative but I need to remind myself to cut back on stupid expenses. Unsubscribing from stupid clothes emails will help. I really don’t need that outfit you’re trying to sell me.
No dairy, gluten or sugar – no, I don’t have celiac officially. I just know that these 3 really do a job on my GI tract and I’m better off without them.
Take the time to tidy KM way. I have started KonMari a couple times but haven’t made it all the way through. The areas I’ve done have stayed awesome. I want my whole house to spark joy. It will also help with #1. So often I’ll buy stuff I already have because I forgot I got it (ask hubby about Phantom of the Opera sometime. He loves to tease me about it.)
Tuesday’s are add on Dance Conditioning day. I’m really liking the doubles and don’t struggle to fit in both. Today was a busy errand day. Got a lot done as we get ready for vacation.
I’ve loosened my containers a bit since the weekend and see it on the scale. A bit too much cheese and corn tortilla chips and I’m gaining instead of losing. It’s crazy how the extra salt and different foods change results. I’ve also been eating mostly tomatoes for my veggies and think I need to diversify. Still sitting at my goal weight number. I’d like to drop 5-10 more but we will see what my body says.
Here’s my time trick. I KonMari fold my workout clothes and pair the sports bras and shorts together in the fold. Because of shorts’ waistbands I alternate them top and bottom so they fit better in my drawer. Then in the morning I don’t waste time to find sets, I just grab and go. So much easier.
I’ve been reading a lot lately about mindset, fixed versus growth, and brain training (what conscious and subconscious thoughts are determining your emotions?). Marie Kondo talks about not keeping things out of guilt or fear and instead surrounding yourself with things that spark joy.
For the last 3 weeks I’ve been pushing through a workout that I don’t love and isn’t my jam. Old me would focus on finishing because quitting is for losers. New me is about doing what I need to do to get back my jam and mojo. So tomorrow I’ll switch my workout to something else. No shame in my self care game.
Why do I make myself switch instead of quitting all together? That’s a good question. Part of it is because I have 2 little kids I need to raise. Part of it is I had to shoot 28 weeks of insulin 4x a day to have those beautiful little kids. Part of it is I like getting stronger and leaner. And part of it is that I need the endorphins to be happy for the rest of the day.
I feel like I’m spinning my wheels right now. My stomach isn’t right for some odd reason (banana reaction or too much dairy or stress or something weird) and I’m super bloated and heavy. It’s making it hard to make a plan and put it into action.
Spring is the time when people start feeling hopeful. The holidays are past and summer is coming. I’ve been stuck in the same place with KonMari, my business and my weight. Nothing like feeling the struggle that is life.
So I’ll push play and do my workout. I’ll eat and pick a small project that I haven’t done and get it off my plate. I need the gratification of completing SOMETHING.
Then I’ll turn on PBS for the girls and have some quiet time to myself to think about goals and plans. A dear friend told me not to let others tell me what my goals are, what rank I should push for because it helps them. And she reminded me that I’m a good friend and coach regardless of all that. Bless her.
Transformation Tuesday. I need to get moving from this rut!